It's been long i've been updated this dead blog, i should revived it since everyone thought my blog its been dead long ago. I should be updating about my life since i got nothing better to do, for your fyi, i'm enlisting to national service, they send me a notice that i need to attend 8 weeks of physical training phase due to my napfa have been valid for 1 year already. i regretted that i had wasted my life for 1 year, if i listen to my parents in the first place i would not end up like how i am now. How times fly right? When i was in primary school, my mum also tell me, time flies. see where am i now? i'm enlisting to army, that's very soon, sadly i will bald too. like me share with you guys what i had faced today, i went to toa payoh to take my napfa test, my 5 stations result was great, only on thing that pulled me all the way down, i'm feeling devastated. because of 2.4km i got the timing of 14.30min and i failed. i have to pass so i would not have to serve for extra 2 more months in army, if i pass, i would be only serving for 1 year 10 months. I failed, but it doesn't matter, try again. 23rd november is last chance. My baby girl always been there supporting me, i felt it. and yeah, i'm still together with her, we are still strong in relationship. both of us is getting mature. we together since we're 16, but now we're 18. for 2 years. we grew so much, we faced so much things together. persistent is the only thing i can describe. i love her, eventually, is a lot. 2 years 7months and we're still going strong. i bet she thought i wouldn't update my blog anymore.

My baby, I would be glad if you're reading this. We had gone through so much, quarrels, bad times, unhappy times with each other. but don't underestimate our love between us, is more than what you think. i know this few months you got to tolerate me and my questions, and keep telling me not to be paranoid. i understand, you would think i don't trust you, hey! not true okay? i always trust you, always have been loving you, missing you. i'm praying hard, dreaming hard, to see us get married one day. Being together with you, you taught me how to be mature, you changed me, my life. even though you cannot see it. but to me, i see there's a big difference when the 1st day being together with you compare to NOW. thanks baby. you changed me to be a better person. you gave me many chances. but i still broke it. thats when i thought, am i the stupidest person? asking myself, why am i losing someone so valuable. (: you just have to know one thing,

no one understands,

i'm not stupid to know,
i had gone true experienced,
i find it weird this few days,
just don't make the crystal so clear,
if you know that you're like this,
there's always a limit,
people can control their own character,
my heart is not a stone,
i have feelings and you should know that,
i have been standing strong,
even the strongest man in this world, still fall,
imagine, im not that strong.