i think i'm starting to get over it already. i guess i'm starting to get my dad's advice.
when is a can, means can.
when comes no, means cannot.
so just treat it this way for now.
cause there's a lot of way ahead of me now.
there's no use to be paranoid over such stuff.
why not let fate decide,
try everything i can now.
try my best to hang on.
when situation comes to be bad, let it be.
i won't let it affects me no more,
i will bear it in mind now and forever.

im doing whatever i can now, but please. don't let me think the other way round
cause, i'm losing myself already.

enough, you don't have to say that to prove to me. you may think what you really see, what am i really am. i've seen your effort. i got something to say to you, it's too late now and still i got something to say, i'm sorry that i treated you that way, time is gone and the moment had passed, there no one fault but mine. you've moved on, and i still dont give a damm.

trying to figure out what's wrong. stuck with the words that can't be spout out.

i'm ready to be another person.

happy 5th baby. 153days.

finally, i accomplished my prelim and d & t, they are over. unlike last time, almost everyday after school have to go back to the hot and dusty room after my lesson or exams, do those rough work. now is to wait for the idiotic theory which was so difficult during prelim. hope N wasn't like that. and for the very first time i didn't brought back my heavy file back home. at least i can relax a little, for now, can't wait for N to come.

you're the one who told me that education was essential and the first priority,as what you had shown me. you're changed, eventually, is a lot. your behavior and languages that you used was very abominable, it disgust me. usually, you wasn't like this. i can just say that you're carried away by them.

don't be affected by what others had said. it's useless.



just be a outspoken person, be frank with me.

change, need to change, and always that way.

thanks for showing your true self.

hiding things doesn't solve anything.

sometimes, some people get me wrong, when something i said or done.
sometimes, you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run.
now i truely realise, some people dont wanna compromise.
well, i saw them with my own eyes, spreading those lies yeah?
well i'm so tired, things you say, you're driving me away.
don't listen the games they play.
i thought you realise.
i'm not like them.
you should've been more wise..


it's time to change, i mean it.

happy birthday singapore..

sometimes i wonder, am i spoiled by my parents? cause, they have been living in their lifes where things they can't get during their childhood even though they persuade and tried to convince their parents. but now, i felt anything that i want they buy for me, they give me. i know they dont want me to have their that kind of life cause is not nice, but i guess their over doing it.they pampered me. i just feel, sometimes i can't control myself either. i was thinking, am i lucky to be born at this type of timing?

You're the baddest little thing that i ever seen(:

damn it. i, just broke my artefact. nice.
frustrated, more and more.
today is the deadline, even better.

lols, thanks for coming all the way up to accompany me:D

must get that habit that you're like this.
i'm really seeing it.

i hope you know what are you trying to show.
i hope you know how to control yourself.
i will not show until you show me what you're trying to do is right.
you haven't complete clear my doubts, but i put it aside.

as i can't see the future, but somehow i'm feeling it.

time to decide the next choice(:

mind my words, one day, i will aim either one of those days, and i will shoot it someday with abrupt. and most probably, it's time to recharge(: see it carefully.