hmmm, i here to blog again. wee kim wee cup is coming round 9 days, i feel so not prepared for the tournament luh, i think i even playing single. wth, my stamina dropped like siao luh please.. left 3 more trainings,

hmmm. my brothers aree planning to go zoo or night safari, next tuesday, it's been 3 years i've been there? and for night safari it's been 15 years. lols, never been there before. sua ku luhhh i know,

damn it can... my whole body aching like crazy, none stop pains. training so tough luh, 3 sets bunny 3 sets lunches< don't know how to spell but pronouns are alike, 3 sets pushups 3 sets situp and 3 sets superman. feel like tearing my leg off..

lols, i'm a monster. lot's of people say i eat alot, before training i ate ( chicken rice add chicken add roasted meat one mo0re plate of rice, imagine the food is how tall.. surprisingly i finished it all, uziel was shocked why i ate so much.. ahahaha, but wth during training i can't run in the end, too full.i eat so much but i don't know why i can't get any fatter, i'm 59kg onlyy...

ahhhhhhhh, no longer cabal. now is maplestory (: argh. addicted, level 175 and 141 (: i chionged. fast right,

i don't wanna waste another day and fail to be with you, i'm not gonna waste. and i know it's killing me inside me, and you need to know everything it's gonna be up hold.. smile girl, (:

Changed blogskin again, kinda pissed with the other skin cause it look vulgur. everytime look at my own blog is like a person pointing middle finger at me. i don't feel good, lols.

yesterday went lavender do I.C first thought in my mind, "huh.. there surely alot of people, confirm wait till half an hour plus". but when i reached there, no people at all.. quiet peace, it takes me 2 min to do I.C kinda fast, went with Glenddon, Edwin and Firman. after the whole I.C thing, went bugis, ate Kfc. while eating suddenly rained freaking heavily, made me and glen shirt totally wet cause we wanna go cathay watch movie, so need mrt. Watched "Man Of Honour" or "Made Of Honour" don't know which one but either one. i guess this june holidays gonna suck, nothing to do. keep on having training..

nvm i gonna stop here,

be patient, i'm on my way.

i felt that my blog is real dead last couple of days, didn't post quite a while cause busy or lazy.

don't feel like blogging anymore,

one more thing. ALOYSIUS YOU SUCK.

I try to make my way to you but still i feel so lost but i don't know what else i can do...this time all i want is you,

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility.
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me.

yesterday went aloysius house to play, watched some dvd. boring even jeremy agrees with me, like being jailed up. stayed till kinda late already, called my parents if i can stay at aloysius house. my parents just say okay, but for jeremy parents, really need to beg them to let him stay.. omg, without jeremy in the house is like super boring luh please, no laughter. after yesterday so is today, went home early in the morning. me and jeremy planned to go out again, but everybody like so lazy. and the freaking weather make my head so heavy, spinning my mind around. argh, somemore aloysius bugggg me go swmming, i'm already so tired luh.. okay nvm, i think i will post later, my head hurts...

to tell the truth you know ive been hurting all along, you're the first and last thing on my mind..

1)At what age do you wish to get married?
22-24

2) Who is more important to you? Friends or Girl/Boyfriend ?
both

3) Who is the person you trust most ?
my brothers and girlfriend

4) Do you think you have enough confidence ?
yes,

5) If you can have a dream to come true , what would it be ?
no very sure?

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain ?
i believe rainbow appear when they are together with rain (:

7) What is your goal for this year ?
her to love me, and my studies to get As

8) Do you believe in eternity love ?
yes, truely (:

9) Have you broken someone's heart that she/he tried to commit sucide ?
lols, hmm let say there's someone.

10) What feeling do you love most ?
being with her and look at her eyes (:

11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half ?
hmm being mature, understanding, kind and lovable maybe?

12) List out 5 best friends of yours
Edwin
Nigel
Glenndon
Jeremy
Aloysius

13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?
yes "double-duh"

14) Who do you love?
Brothers, Family and that girl that i'm looking for

15) What do you think is th most important thing in your life ?
Family,Brothers, girlfriend and musics

16) Who cares for you the most ?
My Brother's,Friends and Family

17) Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words
Edwin.

18) If your mum and boy/girlfriend fell into th river, who would you save ?
confused

19) If time were to rewind , when will you wan it to be ?
no need to rewind, i'm happy being this way

20) Do you love yourself ?
yeah,

Instructions : Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.

me too, same as edwin. LAZY


argh, training so tough today. footwork, i'm dying in the court luh..

why does every moment have to be so hard, sigh

know what, i needa open my eyes next time. i'm just to confused to carry on like this,

june holidays coming, no plans. but kinda happy though, no school. can relax at home, but there's trainin. aww man, wee kim wee's cup tournament for badminton coming real soon. gotta train hard this time. no slacking,

hmm. i'm a free man, lively guy. no longer in. but out, my god brother told me mature things around for the future. what will happen when i'm in, he really cleared my mind this time, i felt freedom. i felt nothing will happen to me in the future, it's been a hard time.. a really hard time to think, wheather if i wanna out or not. but i make up my mind this time. i wanna to change, to be better enough. no use when i'm still inside, make me feel terrible. but i'm okay now, there's nothing in me but me myself and my only brothers, i want them to change better too. i hope they can treat me better,

nigel called me suddenly when i reached home, said wanna find his lover. so, thought of it. got lots of free time, so must as well go with him then staying at home and rot. so went with him, he don't even know where is she. wth. bombed me i thought he knew, so nvm i go with him . along the mrt, he decided to go visit his grandfather in alexandra hospital, is like all those time is just waiting for his grandfather -.- but it's okay. worth the time being with him cause seldom go out with him. me and him got stomach painss aches, haha.. funny, we are there in the hospital nagging that we got stomachaches, after the whole visit. went orhard to find tony (: chat chat for awhile then went bugis find his lover, FINALLY (: so we went there have our dinner, ate noodles. the whole retaurant no space like we waited for half an hour more to find 2 damn sits. after the whole trip, went my god brother house to talk (: talked alot of things that really go inside my mind. glad i opened my mind. grats me. okay i had a great time with my brothers today (: smile bros, love you guys.

i'm a renewed guy.

i felt so awfully sick now.. my body are really aching like someone tearing my muscles apart, argh. interclass, our class played captain's ball today. whoa like shit lah they play, must as well don't play. they lost 0-3, 1-5 wth.. i don't feel like going to school tmr, i wanna take a rest.

just had training today, super stranning. i really want wanna improve my stamina, i felt so lousy, wanna train harder. our juniors getting stronger each training, played singles with one of my sec 1 junior, almost win me. but i still thrash him (: but his kinda strong for a SEC 1,

i think i gonna sleep early today. don't really feels so good today, tmr soccer. GOOD LUCK TO OUR BOYS (: edwin firman abdul nusrul and aloysius, play well tmr.

i will stop breathing when i don't see you anymore.

i'm really sorry to leave you, i know you have been helping me last time. when i'm sad you're there comforting me. when we were sec 1 and 2s, i'm barely remembered most of the time we spent together. go out together, once you told me this today. "sigh why you leave, uziel came in then you leave. it's bored without you with us" i torned apart and felt a strong guilt. is not that i wanna leave you guys, just that i'm not really capable with you guys, i'm being with other brothers cause i want more brothers' created feelings, sigh. i'm really sorry to leave you guys, training i always will be with you right? (: smile.

gonna sleep nights,

hey living things,

just changed my blog skins, kinda plain luh. next time improve on my blog.

got back our test paper, it was a heart attack, i flunk my subjects please.. my chinese! the worse of all, hate chinese words i can't even understand a word. okay not all but most of them, once i speak chinese people can like laugh out loud cause my saliva will like fly? luckily got 2As for CPA and D&T. other subjects got B or below. really gonna study hard this time, no more cabal eventually i quitted or seldom play already. eoy is next, gonna study HARD.

training resumed kinda tired stranning. crams all over, i hope there's someone help me massage. argh can't stop those pains, darn luhhh! no trip during holidays. BORED ): i miss those time in KL,

don't really feel like going to school nowdays cause we do not have any lessons at all. just sit in class you look at me i look at you, super bored.

i told you how i felt,

my heart are getting warmer within 8 days.

, omg. i really high today. sooo high! went town with emilia, edwin and firman. GOD, firman is darn of a joker, within 5 mins i can laugh till my eyes come out tears luhhh, watched "what happened in vegas" romance and hell damn lot's of laughing, you guys should watch it too, edwin and emilia sit beside me and i'm in the middle, like i'm the great wall of china, they kept threwing popcorns at each other, GUESS WHAT. every single popcorn kena my face, hmmm we watched at lido, saw Tony working (: glad to see him, after watching went far east to eat KFC, brought $100 left 25 -.- wth, spent so much luhh, argh. i can just tell you guys i'm super happy today, went home after the whole. walked home with emilia and firman, we walked, talked and laughed. super high i can tell you (: edwin super gay luh, like wanna gay with me like that hahaha, keep touching me. YUCKS

feelings are appearing when i looked at you.

couple more days to go, within my life i'm waiting for you.

yes! oh yes! exams are finally over. suffering from those toturing days. june holidays are coming, oh man. tmr gonna start training, confirm play like beginners. my bone are already rust.

argh! i really hate my damn laptop. i wanna change i can't even sign in to msn, can't even download a thing. keep having errors,

needa plan what am i gonna do in june holidays, gotta enjoy it. most of the days should be having trainings, yawn~ and i felt that my posting are really getting boreddd.. like no life at all,

trying to figure out this life,

13 more days to go,

i got to relax, nowadays. more things are happening to me, kept on dreaming my worse nightmare, why?..

hey guys, i'm really very mad, angry fustrated today. early morning at 8, wanna play cabal but there's error. i kept tryingg to went in. but can'ttt playyy! i tried every ways to get in that stupid game. tried to restart com, tried redownload.worse each download cost me 1 hour, tried till 6 oclock in th evening. damn! i'm can't take it, stupid com. throw away lahhh.. argh

.. i should listen to nigel long ago, you kept on telling me people treating you badly, i admit i treat you bad too, do you know why?! ask yourself fucker, you're treating me bad too, 2x as bad as i treat you. do you know you keep "gl" me till it's hurtful?! right, you don't even understand, CAUSE YOU DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND WHAT THE MEANING OF "BROTHERSHIP" you bloody idiotic arsehole. ask yourself! how many times had you lied to me, not only today. ask yourself last time, HOW MANY TIMES. i hate it when you use your money to go againist me, you forever won't get serious, i tried to change you. but you can't see why i'm doing that, other people said you're damn irritating, why still being with you. i told them, no matter what, his till my brother. i helped you so many times. not only today you bombed me, think yourself. sigh.. i should listen to nigel earlier.. man, i'm sad. please think lah boy, you lost one brother already you still not enough? i never say your name is already very good..

argh, never blog for 4 days. i'm lazy and busy playing cabal,

my memories are just within 15 more days,

currently, playing cabal for the whole day. argh just giving me a headache, well those who know about cabal, I'M GONNA BE G-MASTER, come'on congrats me! omg. played for 5 days? not yet g-master, FOR 5 DAYS, goodness luh. yesterday, math paper 2 kinda easy too. i hope i pass, scaly i say damn easy, end up all fail -.- wth. retard,

yipeee! aloysius sprain his ankle, woot! shiok lah. feels so good towards him! i wanna see him in pain, cause i can't tolerate him, damn i'm evil. but truthfully, his super guai lan. being with him can make my fist fly to someone face, really like cannot "ta han"

Dreams can't take the place of lovin’ you





memories within, 19 more days to go.

you know what? i think i have to learn how to get over it, today went funeral, just see your face for the last time, on coffin glass, upon your face. tears were dripping.. my tears kept on falling down my face, once i look at you, those memories, flew pass my mind, those times when i was a kid. i won't forget you, memories will be there. by your loved ones, i hope you find a place where peace goes to...

how long will i be waiting, to be a better guy? tell me.