i felt so awfully sick now.. my body are really aching like someone tearing my muscles apart, argh. interclass, our class played captain's ball today. whoa like shit lah they play, must as well don't play. they lost 0-3, 1-5 wth.. i don't feel like going to school tmr, i wanna take a rest.

just had training today, super stranning. i really want wanna improve my stamina, i felt so lousy, wanna train harder. our juniors getting stronger each training, played singles with one of my sec 1 junior, almost win me. but i still thrash him (: but his kinda strong for a SEC 1,

i think i gonna sleep early today. don't really feels so good today, tmr soccer. GOOD LUCK TO OUR BOYS (: edwin firman abdul nusrul and aloysius, play well tmr.

i will stop breathing when i don't see you anymore.

i'm really sorry to leave you, i know you have been helping me last time. when i'm sad you're there comforting me. when we were sec 1 and 2s, i'm barely remembered most of the time we spent together. go out together, once you told me this today. "sigh why you leave, uziel came in then you leave. it's bored without you with us" i torned apart and felt a strong guilt. is not that i wanna leave you guys, just that i'm not really capable with you guys, i'm being with other brothers cause i want more brothers' created feelings, sigh. i'm really sorry to leave you guys, training i always will be with you right? (: smile.

gonna sleep nights,